A short break from morning study.
Well, I am being a good girl. Waking up early morning, slept early, just to prepare for my final paper which is in 3 days later. What a long prepare isnt it. =) I love how morning sunshines dries all my clothes and I will have no worry about when to collect them later. They will dry up within half an hour also. Hope the good whether stays the whole day.

Did my morning routine, read through blogs as if their my news sources. Read thestar online. And I guess its the only way I can get access to the world. Yes, I am staying in the jungle/cave you say it. And manage to get through hitz.fm online radio, its the best thing ever for this morning. Hope the line doesnt drop off just like that. =D

Last night went to Melaka General Hospital. Wait. Its not about me. Dont worry. =)
Its about a coursemate of mine. She had an accident, a motor accident, with another friend of mine which is also her roommater. Had several stiches, one of them are on her forehead. Reminded me about mine about one and half a year ago. It reminds me of my pain, my mum cried, my dad drop his work and came, my friends, my teachers. Well, it was a clumsy action of mine. I never forget how did I fell into the longkang. Argh ya, LONGKANG. =.='' And I was 18 soon to be. You must be thinking I was talking about my childhood.

The Melaka General Hospital is scary, it doesnt look like a proper hospital. Everyone inside were so slow, walk so slow, talk so slow, so quiet, and most of the places are damn dark as if they are trying to save on the electric bill. Everything in there seems so scary to me, the corridor, the carpark, the sudden under trees' sits, the dark rumah mayat, the bahagian forensik, ape ape pun gelap gelap.

Drove back to hostel and fall asleep as quick as I could after getting on the phone for a while. It seems like a long day, perhaps, its just a long night.

Accident. Becareful everyone. Drive safe.

back to my books.
C++ programming is confusing. =.=''

Sometimes when you have one, you want two.
People became more greedy and they lost what they have now.
If you have the chance, grab it, and also appreciate it.
Perhaps, theres not always a second chance.

managed to get back to hostel before it wet me.

is your place raining too?

It is a great morning.

I woke up very early today, I think its due to the early sleep last night. I really had exhausted my body till whenever it reach certain time in the day, it will goes off by itself. I had a good sleep. Though, not the deep sleep I have been long for, it still re boost my energy. With a list of songs that I love, that makes it my favourite, they keep me asleep most of the time. With my roommate not around, on my imac softly, and i fell asleep as fast it could be. I guess I am not used to sleep lonely like this. Well, with the songs, I dont feel lonely anymore. Music is the best accompany. And fever definately a good switch to turn off your body and make you go sleep.

Had a cup of neslo, with my favourite buttercookies. Read a few article online, with my only gadgets, iphone. I am very lucky to have it. At least at times like this, I have something which entertain me. Getting online and just reading is my hobby, blogging and reblog, reread blog are also my hobbies. Its a very grateful morning. With few of the meaningful post I read. Some touched my heart, some make me realise, some makes me want to blog. I think this is gonna be really long.

First semester, first year is coming to an end. After about 4 months here, I see how time flies and I am going to end my first semester. Last paper is on Friday, another 3 days to prepare to it. I am now a little bit more relax. After Friday, the hostel will be back to its sleep. Take some rest from us the noisy girls, it serves us well. And after the final paper, I will be back home. Home sweet home. For this short break, I decided not to go back to KL. I stayed in Mlk, hope it worths it. Give my final effort and bonding up with coursemates/housemates before we see each other next year. Four years definately not gonna be long for all of us.

Read an article of timothytiah.blogspot.com. Its about money and happiness. How do you find happiness? In my way of happiness, its who I am now. Its the best time I suppose for a teenager. I dont consider myself as a mature teenager either a childish one. I just love the way I am. I believe that everyone has their own space of mind. Everyone think, in a very different way, everyone hides from their real emotions, everyone compare with each other, no one is actually satisfy with what they have or what they are, getting angry nor depress, not complaining.

I complains, I get depress, I have anger, but ahead of all this, the most good thing I have is people around me. I have a pair of lovely parents,very cool one. My dad wouldnt point at my mistakes, but he let me to see it myself. My mum is another optimistic freak, it seems like nothing can tear her down. Maybe just that they hadnt been showing me much of their real faces. Being the only child in the big family, being the spotlight of all adults, you just have to learn how to handle yourself. Theres no sister nor brother who guide you, nor anyone at your age, you have to learn and pick it as fast as you could. At most of the time, you are on your own, being independent, not any spoiled brat in anyone's eyes.

With also crazy bunch of friends, some is in US, some is in UK, some in India, some in Russia, its everywhere around the world, the boyfriend, goodfriends, childhood friends, readers. When its depress season, I would sit down alone and think about how bad my life it is. Think negatively and gettting more depress about it. This is most of the people do, nothing big about it. But afterall, reading up some positive post, nor talking back to some of my goodfriends, they boost my positiveness up. Its good how I change to fast, at least I dont stay depress so long. And very rarely you see me cry infront of you. I only do that under my cover of mask. Nor infront of people who I think I am very comfortable with. There all a few friends who I miss a lot, going through the age of friendship, so much of troubles, rumours, teenage life, how can you know miss them? I miss how we sit and talk for ages, I miss how we just go for window shopping and taking pictures in the fitting room, most of it, I miss how we get together and take thousands pictures. How are you guys?

I love to feel to be appreciate. Who doesnt? Its a way of self-praising. Or maybe you say it the ego grows in you. But no matter how big the ego grows, dont let it over take your mind, or else you lose everything that you win from the others. Its fine to have your own time, its fine to let yourself to be real, but when its over its limit, theres nothing else left. Be smart, be wise. It doesnt take a day to build up all the feelings, it doesnt take a day to lose all the feelings, it doesnt take a day to show your love, it takes the heart to tell another person you love her.


With all that above,
thats my happiness.

How do you find happiness?

I am easy as ABC.
Sometimes.
When I feel like being a kid.
I have my kiddy time too.
You know you are my source of happiness.
You know a blowing balloon can keep me smiling.
You know how to make me happy.







had fever this afternoon. Its on and off. Thanks to the unstable whether. Had a really long nap this evening. Hmm. Its time to study Nihongo. Have exam on Sunday. Yes, SUNDAY. =.='' Had maggi for dinner, HarMee HorChiak. Had drove around the town with the red hot face, it indicates that I am soon to be Sikh. Two papers down, another two to go. The two major subject which torned me down, its over. Its such a relief, at least for now. Tomorrow you see a giraffe start talking in Japanese, and you will wonder if the giraffe born in Japan but not Afrika.

Another one week and I will be home. For 6 weeks break. I guess my mum had planned my half december. Boys, are you guys free? Lets go for another random trip. =) Christmas is coming! I cant wait to meet the girls. Weng yee, chui yee, kah yoke, seow feng, linda, the boys, and more. Hmm. I should get back to my Nihongo.




dear you,
be strong. you know i am always here. no matter its the difference of time. nor you at the end of other side of the world, you know we are connected. just tell me when you need me and i will be here. just like how i did.
love you. take care.
ym.

I call this ______. (youmayfillintheblank)

Good afternoon.

Just finished one paper yesterday, one has down, another three to go. It seems so long and theres confusion in it. Had a long sleep due to fever and flu. Thanks to the sudden rain whenever I am out for lunch/dinner. Now I am smarter. I cooked maggi mee. It saves a lot. Rm 4 for about 4 meals. Breakfast was my favourite buttercookies. I felt like I had locked myself in this hostel. I moved the table in, I stayed in the room. Maybe it is due to the exam stress.

Heard many songs, they are the only one which keeps me awake to continue study. But sometimes, they are the one which distract me, because I felt like singalong and I had to look at the lyrics. You know how good I am at changing lyrics and continue singing as if its a new song. I remember how i used to sang in your car and you started laughing suddenly. Then I know, you were laughing at my skill.

How does it work like this?
How did I get so distract by you?
How did I get so lost and feel empty?
How did I lose wacky giraffe spirit?
Maybe. Maybe. I need a booster.
Hmm. Maybe. Its not the matter anymore.
Maybe.

Dont tell him that I miss him.
Dont tell him that I need him.
Dont tell him that giraffe cant survive without its brown dots on yellow body.
Dont tell him giraffe has gone crazy.

Because he knows. =)

would you be my rainbow?
I dont need it to be hang on the sky.
as long as you make me feel you are a rainbow.

It’s just a sad picture,
The final blow hits you
Somebody else gets what you wanted again
You know it’s all the same
Another time and place
Repeating history, and your getting sick of it
But I believe in whatever you do
And I’ll do anything to see it through

Because these things will change
Can you feel it now?
These walls that they put up to hold us back will fall down
It’s a revolution, the time will come for us to finally win
We’ll sing hallelujah…
We’ll sing hallelujah…
Oh… Oh,oh..

So you’ve been outnumbered
Raided and now cornered
It’s hard to fight when the fight ain’t fair
We’re getting stronger now
From things they never found
They might be bigger, but we’re faster and never scared
You can walk away and say we don’t need this
But there’s something in your eyes, says we can beat this

These things will change
Can you feel it now?
These walls that they put up to hold us back will fall down
It’s a revolution, the time will come for us to finally win
We’ll sing hallelujah…
We’ll sing hallelujah…
Oh… Oh,oh..

Tonight we’re standing on our knees
To fight for what we worked for all these years
The battle was long, it’s the fight of our lives
Will we stand up champions tonight?
It was the night things changed
Can you see it now?
When the walls that they put up to hold us back fell down
It’s a revolution, throw your hands up, cause we never gave in
We’ll sing halleluiah…
We’ll sing halleluiah…
Hallelujah….

p.s.
I want to shout out loud.
I want to cry as if no one could hear.
I want to run as far as I could.

If only sunflower blossom again.

You held my hand and we crossed the road.





Had a cup of milky lipton tea. Had became the little tutor for everyone. I felt good inside. At least, I am able to find out their mistakes and I could explained based on my knowledge. Hmm, I guess I could answer. No too much of self confidence, losing it bit by bit. Perhaps, need some confidence booster.

Its not fun to walk to in the rain, while you have no idea when the rain is gonna stop. Its not fun to get sick and dizzyness, the next second you feel like vomit while the next day you have your final exam. Its not fun to drive in the rain cause you have no idea whats going on infront of you. Imanewdriver.

I settled this subject, but theres another two in the waiting list. Which I am not too sure if I could do it. I noticed, if I stay up later than 12am, I get hungry. Especially during exam time, I guess my stress speeds up my digestion, and I am now very hungry. No food. Lazy. Ah! I managed to only spend rm3. =D Only in Melaka, I could do so. I am kinda proud of my archievement.

I am now blogging cause I am over stress. My face doesnt show. My behavior and my tummy shows. I had moved my table inside the room. It makes me feel personal. I have my own table in the room, my bed, my steel cupboard, everything seem like in a set. L shape, and its all good. The room has to stays in clean and good condition for another two weeks. Or else, I would have gone crazy.


I apologize.
would you forgive?

goodnight folks.